i stayed in manila til august 2010, went home to my province to celebrate my birthday…by october, i went back to manila to look for a good-paying job, unfortunately, there was none for me and before october ended, i went back to aparri to attend the funeral of my friend SARAH , since then, i’ve been stuck here in aparri, doing nothing, watching the world pass me by. sounds boring, i know, but it wasn’t… it was rather exciting. i was out with my friends almost every day and night… we would hang out doing nothing serious, most of the time we’d laugh about silly things that we see, hear or talk about… i watched my relationship with coke turn its love switch on and off, and i’ve seen how hard we’ve tried to stick together. i enjoyed the holidays with my family, but before that fun part, i went through some things that are remarkable. i got depressed. things didn’t go my way, they went out of my control…and there was nothing i could do, and even if there was, i could’ve failed. i wasn’t really that depressed though, not the suicidal type… days just went soo slow and dull, lifeless then i started hating the taste of beer and cigarette…i’m not sure if it was a coping mechanism of some sort, but bless that day weeks after, i found out that i was pregnant december 21, 2010, positive. ok, ok..i wasn’t really that shocked, i didn’t even feel nervous nor afraid, i felt ALONE knowing that neil and i were not doing well… and soo i sought the help of my friends. i tried to outside as long as i could and my friends were very helpful. much as i wanted to go out every day and night, i wasn’t able to because of those pregnancy symptoms that’s been bugging me. i celebrated the holidays half-happy, half-lonely…i wasn’t sad, i just felt soo alone during those times. but then it came to me, i shouldn’t be worried of anything, i shouldn’t feel lonely, coz there’s a creature inside me…feeling whatever i was feeling. and soo i tried to enjoy stuffs the best way could. by january, things between me and neil were settled, his family came by march to have the what you call “pamamanhikan”, we got married by april, and by then we never separated sweet and now we’re expecting a baby boi….

it was CRAZY. up until now, if i look back on those times, on those happenings, i still can’t believe they happened…i’m not even sure if i sucked it all up in my system already…sheeesh! that’s a lot to take in. when i look back on those times, i can’t help but let go of a sigh and smile.

i am happee i’m married to the man of my dreams, we’re having a baby boi this coming august, our families are there guiding and helping us, our friends are always there supporting us…the sphere of my freaking world is burning with love sigh…it was freaky, but i am grateful that all of these things happened…they are living proof that i am alive…they happened the least i expect them, and if surprises like these keeps on happening? living is even more fun and exciting

8 july 2008: Mybestline42day: hirap ng walang trabaho mga tsong. buti pa si dyesebel palangoy-langoy lang sumikat na. eh kung ganun din lang basehan ng pagpapayaman, ba! eh kahit magsuot nako ng malaking choral sa ulo at kahit pa buntot ng shark para lang magkapera db? leche talaga!

10 july 2008: Mybestline42day: i miss being loved.

12 july 2008: Mybestline42day: you have many girls runnin after you. one of ‘em you brought home, the other 2 you got laid with. the other 2 you got preggy and told both to have abortion. the other 3 you dated often. you felt great kissin ‘em all in the mouth, touching their private spots. you even got 2 helpless creatures dead just because you’re no ready for a kid. you’ve enjoyed each time you went out with these girls you promised to be there always. these girls who pathetically cling to your promises which you never intend to keep. made all of ‘em breakdown and cry, crave for that responsibility that they expect you to stand up to. what you did is turned all of ‘em away like the way you do with your worn out jeans. now you have another bunch of girls to gully and deceive. make ‘em believe that you love ‘em where in truth, you just wanted to go under their pants. sooner or later, they’d be goners. now, d’you really feel like a man doing this? you surely do not have any conscience.

14 july 2008: Mybestline42day: mas mabuting deadmahin ang sakit kesa pagkagastusan. it’s all in the mind. kung iisipin mo may sakit ka, magkakasakit ka talaga. pero kung di mo iisiping may dinaramdam ka, di ka dadapuan neto.

Mybestline42day: ang pinakamatamis na paglalambing ay di nakukuha sa matatamis na salita o sa kahit libo-libong kilig na maramdaman. minsan nakukuha to sa pagsusungit ng taong nagaalala sayo. at kahit pa ga’no kapangit sa pakiramdam mga pagsusungit niya, naiibsan ito sa panahong ginugugol niya sa pagiintindi ng kalagayan mo.

19 july 2008: Mybestline42day: aren’t people tired of having a broken heart? if you’ll ask me, i think i am!

29 july 2008: Mybestline42day: masaya mabuhay sa mundo kung marunong kang gamitin ang iyong kalokohan sa mabuting paraan, at ang masarap sa pakiramdam, nakakapagpaligaya ka ng ibang tao dahil sayong kalokohan.

30 july2008: Mybestline42day: sa bawat lagok, ramdam ko ang init. hagod sa lalamunan ang ginhawang hatid. namnam ng panlasa ang tamis at sarap sa pakiramdam habang unti unting bumabalot saking katawan ang yong init. nalulunod nko sayo, MILO!

31 july 2008: Mybestline42day: masdan ang pagpatak ng ulan, tila ba luha ngmga anghel sa langit. EMO rin ba ang mga anghel na nakabantay sa atin? may pakiramdam rin ba sila tulad ng mga tao sa daigidg? hindi rin kaya tunay na may anghel na bantay natin kung kayat sa twing tayo’y walang kasama, may kung ano sa pakiramdam na nagsasabing di tayo nagiisa.

The Blog-Health-o-Meter™ reads Wow.

Crunchy numbers

Madison Square Garden can seat 20,000 people for a concert. This blog was viewed about 68,000 times in 2010. If it were a concert at Madison Square Garden, it would have performed about 3 times.

In 2010, there were 42 new posts, growing the total archive of this blog to 114 posts. There were 309 pictures uploaded, taking up a total of 28mb. That’s about 6 pictures per week.

The busiest day of the year was December 5th with 4,031 views. The most popular post that day was 21477bp~looney-tunes-wile-e-coyote-posters-2007813.

Where did they come from?

The top referring sites in 2010 were search.aol.com, 74.125.67.100, google.com, facebook.com, and shots.snap.com.

Some visitors came searching, mostly for paramore, tweety bird, bugs bunny, wile e coyote, and speedy gonzales.

Attractions in 2010

These are the posts and pages that got the most views in 2010.

remembering looney! July 2009
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God knows the world doesn’t need another band! November 2009

paramore is coming to the PHILIPPINES! November 2009

just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that’s all right because i like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that’s all right because i love the way you lie
i love the way you lie
ohhh, i love the way you lie

i can’t make my own decisions or make any with precision
well, maybe you should tie me up so i don’t go where you don’t want me
you say that i’ve been changing, that i’m not just simply aging
yeah, how could that be logical?
just keep on cramming ideas down my throat

wo-o-o-ho-oh

you don’t have to believe me
but the way i, way i see it
next time you point a finger
i might have to bend it back
or break it, break it off
next time you point a finger… i’ll point you to the mirror

if God’s the game that you’re playing
well, we must get more acquainted
because it has to be so lonely… to be the only one who’s holy
it’s just my humble opinion, but it’s one that i believe in
you don’t deserve a point of view, if the only thing you see is you

wo-o-o-ho-oh

you don’t have to believe me
but the way i, way i see it
next time you point a finger

i might have to bend it back

or break it, break it off
next time you point a finger… i’ll point you to the mirror

this is the last second chance
(i’ll point you to the mirror)
i’m half as good as it gets
(i’ll point you to the mirror)
i’m on both sides of the fence
(i’ll point you to the mirror)
without a hint of regret… i’ll hold you to it

i know you don’t believe me
but the way i, way i see it
next time you point a finger
i might have to bend it back
or break it, break it off
next time you point a finger… i’ll point you to the mirror

i know you won’t believe me
but the way i, way i see it
next time you point a finger
i might have to bend it back
or break it, break it off
next time you point a finger… i’ll point you to the mirror

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl…No…No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would’ve walk away

Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl…No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain’t gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

ang araw na tayo’y

may tampuhan…

bakit hindi natin pag-usapan

ang mga bagay bagay

sa’ting samahan…

pa’no maaayos

kung paiiralin

ang init ng ulo?

kung sa simpleng pag-uusap nama’y

maiiwasan ang gulo…

bakit ba kay hirap

ipadama ang tunay

na nararamdaman?

kay hirap bigkasin

ang mga salitang

hindi mo alam

ang pinagmumulan…

hindi mapakali

kapag hindi tayo

nag-uusap…

ngunit di rin naman

makakilos

kapag mata nati’y

nagharap…

may mga bagay

lang talaga

na di kelangan

intindihin…

bagay na di

laan sa utak

kundi sa damdamin…

bakit ba kay hirap

ipadama ang tunay

na nararamdaman?

kay hirap

bigkasin ang mga salitang

hindi mo alam

ang pinagmumulan…

bakit di na lang

idaan sa simpleng

yakap at halik?

nang maibsan

ang pangungulila

ng mga puso

nating sabik…

just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that’s alright because i like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that’s alright because i love the way you lie
i love the way you lie

i  can’t tell you what it really is
i can only tell you what it feels like
and right now it’s a steel knife in my windpipe
i can’t breathe but i still fight while i can fight
as long as the wrong feels right it’s like i’m in flight
high off of love, drunk from my hate,
it’s like i’m huffing paint and i love it the more i suffer, i suffocate
and right before i’m about to drown, she resuscitates me
she fucking hates me and i love it.
wait! where you going?
“i’m leaving you”
no you ain’t. come back we’re running right back.
here we go again
it’s so insane cause when it’s going good, it’s going great
i’m Superman with the wind at his back, she’s Lois Lane
but when it’s bad it’s awful, i feel so ashamed i snapped
who’s that dude? i don’t even know his name
i laid hands on her, i’ll never stoop so low again
i guess i don’t know my own strength

just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that’s alright because i like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that’s alright because i love the way you lie
i love the way you lie

you ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
when you’re with ‘em
you meet and neither one of you even knows what hit ‘em
got that warm fuzzy feeling
yeah, them those chills you used to get ‘em
now you’re getting fucking sick of looking at ‘em
you swore you’d never hit ‘em; never do nothing to hurt ‘em
now you’re in each other’s face spewing venom in your words when you spit them
you push pull each other’s hair, scratch claw hit ‘em
throw ‘em down pin ‘em
so lost in the moments when you’re in them
it’s the rage that took over it controls you both
so they say you’re best to go your separate ways
guess if they don’t know you ’cause today that was yesterday
yesterday is over, it’s a different day
sound like broken records playing over but you promised her
next time you show restraint
you don’t get another chance
lLife is no Nintendo game
but you lied again
now you get to watch her leave out the window
i guess that’s why they call it window pane

just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that’s alright because i like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that’s alright because i love the way you lie
i love the way you lie

now i know we said things, did things that we didn’t mean
and we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
but your temper’s just as bad as mine is
you’re the same as me
but when it comes to love you’re just as blinded
baby, please come back
it wasn’t you, baby it was me
maybe our relationship isn’t as crazy as it seems
maybe that’s what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
all i know is i love you too much to walk away though
come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
don’t you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
i told you this is my fault
look me in the eyeball
next time i’m pissed, i’ll aim my fist at the drywall
next time. there won’t be no next time
i apologize even though i know its lies
i’m tired of the games i just want her back
i know i’m a liar
if she ever tries to fucking leave again
im’a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
i’m just gonna

just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that’s alright because i like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that’s alright because i love the way you lie
i love the way you lie

Gaddaym! i was like “how the hell did he do that?!” and i was nostalgic. if there’s one game that i really played seriously when i was a kid, that’ll be MARIO. and while i was viewing this video, i was soo amazed that i felt like a little girl again great job dude